Life can get overwhelming at times.
I think this is true for most people. I know it's true for me.
Even little things can start to feel ridiculously hard. Maybe there are reasons for this: an emotion, a belief, a thought or possible conflict, that is making something seem so much harder than it should be. Or maybe it's just one of those days where things seem hard and there is no underlying reason in sight.
When this happens I have found that it is helpful to stop trying to look at the big picture. When the big picture is just too big then I find that I need to focus on just one thing. Just one step.
That's honestly how I got myself out of bed this morning.
I was feeling overwhelmed for no particular reason-- something about fear and inadequacy which I'm sure I'll write about later-- but every little task seemed too hard. So to get up I had to stop and remember-- just one step.
"Just open your eyes," I told myself, "just open your eyes and see what the day looks like."
Once I had done that I said, "Good. Are you okay?"
Yes. Was my answer.
"Okay. Now just sit up and take a breath. Still doing okay?"
"Good. Now we are going to make coffee and that will feel warm and good. We can do this, one step at a time."
And so on... until the steps got less specific and I was able to enjoy being awake and chip away at some of the things that were overwhelming me (as well as some things that I just really wanted to do).
It's afternoon now and there are still a lot of things that I want or need to do. There are still things that I dread and have put off. But I know that it's okay if I can't get them all done. It's okay if choose not to do them today, but if I just take a step I might build momentum. If I just take a step then that's one step closer. If I can chip away at a difficult task--even if it is just a little tiny chip-- it makes it that much easier for me to work on the next time.
It doesn't have to be all at once. The strides don't have to be huge and they don't all have to be directed at things I dread. They can be small and fun and freeing, but if I want to move then I have to take a step. Just one. Just one. Just one.
Wherever it is I am going, I will get there with just one step.
And then one step more.
I can do this. So can you. Just one step.
Thank you for reading.