It's come to my realization that I'm not as kind a person as I would like to be.
I don't want to be someone who kicks someone when they are down or berates them for the things they are unable to do. It doesn't matter if the person in questions is my best friend or worst enemy. I don't want to be someone who would hurt anyone who is already in pain.
But I do it to myself all the time. Especially when I have an episode.
If I believe that everyone is worthy of love and respect and I am someone, then I have to include myself too. If I want to be the kind of person who knows how to love another being unconditionally, even when the circumstances are not ideal-- then I need to love myself that way first.
Self-love is talked about a lot, but it's really hard to practice. I don't know if I'll ever get it right, but I know that one place to start is with kindness. I might not be perfect but I can be kind--even to myself-- and gentle-- even with myself.
I'm tired of feeling like a victim and I hate to admit that I'm a bully. I don't want to be either anymore. Even if I treated 1,000 people with dignity, respect, and consideration; if I turn around and bully just one person I'm still being cruel. It doesn't matter who that person is-- even if it's myself. I don't want to be the kind of person who picks on anyone like that anymore.
I'm trying to live in true alignment with my beliefs. One of my beliefs is kindness. It's time to start living it.
Thank you for reading
and have a really happy Thanksgiving.