Becoming Worthy: A Theory Part 1: Focus (or the lack of it)
ersonal Challenge 6 of 20
Thanks for reading. I'm going to be honest with you, I'm having an incredibly hard time focusing today.
I apologize in advanced if this post ends up reflecting that lack of focus. Maybe some days are meant to be goal-driven and focused. Those are the days that you know what you want and you go after them-- chipping away at any obstacle that may appear and blazing new trails at an exceptionally-fast pace. Those days feel good, don't they? Productive I mean-- Like you are in the flow.
I'm not having one of those days. Maybe that's okay. We can't always be focused and goal driven. Maybe we would like to imagine we could, but the truth is we can't. I know I can't, at least.
Some days are like today is for me. I'm everywhere. I can't seem to think. I jump around from one idea to another, forgetting the first on my way to the second. It feels like a mess, but in that mess there is something of value. The value is this: I have time to dream and to explore.
One problem with being super-goal orientated is that it narrows your view. You make a whole lot of progress in a single direction but no progress in any other. Yesterday I was focused on editing photographs I took this weekend. I'm not quite done yet, but I made a lot of progress. I'll add some to the bottom of this post :).
Today I started thinking about all the other things I want to do in my life. I have so many dreams and they don't all intersect all the time. How am I going to get there? I wonder. How am I going achieve even 1 (let alone all) of them? Is it even possible?
Here is an answer I got today:
When you are worthy of your dreams you will have the opportunity to achieve them. Not before.
What does that mean exactly?
Well, it means that I still have a lot of personal growth to work on before trying to spread outward in the direction of a specific goal. It means that I need to be the kind of person that can do the work I dream of doing and that I need to take this time to: 1. continue dreaming and 2. work on developing the habits/ skills/ internal attitudes necessary to move these ideas from the world of dreams into the world of realities.
Before I end this post I'd like to add a disclaimer. I can see this idea being misconstrued as a justification for rich being rich and poor being poor (we've used this a lot in different theological/ philosophical views of the world in the past). I'm not saying that this applies to everyone or anyone else. I'm just sharing my personal journey with you. I ask whoever it is that I believe in as a higher power what the point is and how I'll get there. The answer I get is: to be the kind of person who is worthy of the dreams I have. I want to be able to make a difference then I need to become a person who is strong enough, smart enough, resourceful enough, cooperative enough, and ethical enough to do so. Only then will the opportunity arrive.
Keep growing as a person. Keep working on being your best self. Focus inwardly and the outward opportunities will arrive at the right time. That's the answer I was given.
Thanks for reading. Now for some picture. :)
with love, Jaime